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Tuesday, February 28, 2017
Revelation
I had been ill for so long, that only the grave of God has spared my life. The Cellulitis, not once, but twice, the organ failure, the bilateral pulmonary emboli, the massive edema. Any one of these issues could have killed me, and has killed many others.
For the last year, Ive tried so many things, Low Calorie, Low Fat, Whole 30...each thing showed initial impressive success, promptly followed by an equally quick regain. I was at the end of my rope. I finally surrendered to God, asking him to guide me to what would finally work. When I least expected it, I came across the keto diet. It seemed so doable. I suddenly realized God laid this before me.
Having been so ill for so long, and trying anything to feel better, I had already cut sugar and carbs, to the point that I had no withdrawal. I really had no cravings, it all just seemed so natural, almost too easy. I lost 8 1/2 pounds that first week Wow.
Since that time, though, I have been having a massive internal struggle. I had all of these internal dialogues, all casting shadow and doubt....
....You have lost more in the first weeks of other diets before.
....Your losses are slowing down,,,its only a matter of tine before you start gaining.
...This will never work long term unless you go into this intermittent fasting like these others with fab results,...you just eat too many calories.
The list goes on and on. The peace i had over this choice was shattered each time one of these thoughts reared its ugly head.
Suddenly, yesterday, I realized something. Something that completely cemented for the that I have been God led. When a christian is listening to God and is content in His grace, who begins to break them down? You guessed it...
I saw this yesterday, as if it wasn't clear enough. I cannot tell you how thrilled I am.
First, all of the darkness has had light shed upon it...no darkness remains. What a peace!
Second, the excitement...oh the excitement to have the reassurance that my Lord and savior is guiding me in this path that is surely going to change my life. I am no longer in doubt, no longer anxious or impatient, because no matter how long it takes, God has this, and has me in the palm of his hand.
Look out future healthier me, here I come!!
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Thursday, February 23, 2017
Nevermind...
Maybe it was too soon into this journey?
Not sure, all I know is I got up yesterday morning, raring to go. Made myself scrambled eggs in butter for breakfast. Lunch was an omelette with cream cheese filling. I got half way through it, and nearly threw up. The thought of egg salad for inner made me shudder.
I sheepishly reported to the two loved ones i drug into this with me that I was throwing in the towel. Neither gave me any flack. I'm guessing it might have been relief.
I'll try again when I need to, but certainly not before.
Onward!
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Tuesday, February 21, 2017
Eggs, Anyone?
If you're unfamiliar with egg fasts, here is a great explanation., along with some creative ways to not burn out on the shelled wonders.
Nervous and excited for the challenge. Now, let's see how I feel by Friday night!
TODAY'S CARBS N CALORIES
calories = 1,324
carbs = 17-1 fiber = 16g net
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Monday, February 20, 2017
Day Twenty - Four
I chose Tuesdays as my weigh in day, but I actually weighed this morning.
My starting weight was 377.0
My weight this morning....361.0
Yes, that is 16 pounds in 23 days.
.679 pounds. A. DAY.
I'm stunned. Just stunned.
Its funny, though. Some days it feels like I have been doing this forever, and I get frustrated, thinking I should really be so much further along.
Then, I shake off the feeling and come back to the reality that I am no longer dropping 17 pounds in five days and gaining them back over the next week, usually with an extra pound or two.That is the dance I have been doing with every other way of eating I have attempted for the last year.
Even when I went up three pounds last week, it was not a discouraging feeling, its like, I saw that it was not the same, as if I knew I'd lose the three and another 1.5 with it the next week.
I'm so very thankful to God for bringing me through all I have been through that brought me here. This is where I will win. He will make sure of it.
I'm looking forward to filling in the cyber pages of this blog. I have been fighting this for at least the last week or more. But I'm going to want to look back at this and see the journey when I get to the other end.
Galatians 6:9 - Let us not become weary in doing good, for at the proper time we will reap a harvest if we do not give up.
TODAY'S CARBS N CALORIES
calories = 1,327
carbs = 19-5 fiber = 14g net
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